In May 2022 I’ll be celebrating 10 years as the creator of Expand Your Impact. Throughout the last decade I’ve had some amazing successes along with some amazing failures.

But since the beginning of 2018, I’ve struggled to FULLY express myself through my business and thus created all kinds of drama (being banned from my accounts for 6 months) and micro-traumas (comments & messages from well-intentioned, yet unaware individuals) that left me stepping away completely for quite sometime except to work privately with a few amazing clients and behind the scenes on some other projects.

My conditioning in times like these is to feel wrong for being who I am and try to FIX what I saw as problems. Personal and world events in March 2020 didn’t make things any easier and further supported my frustrating reality.

I sought to deeply understanding myself WITHOUT the conditioning and filters that supported that conditioning which led me to studying Quantum Human Design, I realized this was all part of my Solar Return (happens around the time you’re in your 40’s) and further refinement of my life’s purpose.

After pondering the question – What’s right about me, I’m not getting?- I turned to studying a variety of mentors on the topics of brain science, mindset & emotions, I realized how addicted I was to certain energy patterns that simply needed to be rewired. Being prone to anxiety and a variety of physical maladies – my entire nervous system was screaming for attention.

It allowed me the space to wonder...if nothing is wrong here, what else is truly possible?

I’m so grateful for these past 2 years where I’ve gotten to spend a lot of time healing and rewiring my brain & nervous system so that I can create with more predictability my desired outcomes and continue to see the physical and emotional pain of anxiety growing further and further from my everyday experience.

As I step back to more conscious content creation, I find myself working on laying the emotional foundation of BELONGING.

I’d like to feel like I BELONG with the freedom to BE ME!

As a part of embodying this creative expression, I made these doodles and thought you might enjoy them. I’m titling them…

***3D vs. 5D Belonging – Which Reality Will I Choose?***

Before I set about building a strong, intentional foundation of BELONGING my life looked like this image.

That’s me wobbling about on one foot trying to be strong & flexible enough to handle whatever.

I defined ‘belonging’ as being liked by others and found myself trying to be PERFECT to ‘fit in’ and hiding the parts of me that weren’t all that pretty.

I defined ‘belonging’ as acknowledgement. How many fans, followers, email subscribers,and clients could I collect as an indicator of my worthiness?

I defined ‘belonging’ as agreement – someone needed to agree with me in order to validate me.

All of this ‘belonging’ came from something outside of me, which I now understand as 3D or 3rd dimensional, where reality operates as duality, separation and limitation.

But I wanted so much to live a 5D or 5th dimensional reality, where reality operates as unity, oneness and unlimited potential.

In the 2nd doodle you see the ‘foundation’ has moved into my heart and consists of 3 parts.

Part 1: I have a close & intimate relationship with myself.

I belong.

My thoughts, feelings, beliefs and emotions belong to me and can never be bad or wrong.

Part 2: Next, I feel comfortable in any situation.

I will take care of me even if I haven’t taken care of me before.

I have my own back.

I will not abandon the purposeful expression of my life & impact.

Part 3: I’m an important person just as I am.

I make a powerful impact just by being me.

For now these two doodles will be displayed somewhere I can see them and remind myself I always have the choice to curiously ask…

Who am I today?

Will I be the 3D version of me who believes belonging is created outside of me or will I be the 5D version of me who creates her reality from within?

What if I decided to think thoughts that created emotions of belonging, no matter what I posted on LinkedIn, Facebook, or Instagram?

How might that impact the results I’m able to create in my life?

What thoughts can I choose that help me create the emotion of belonging here?

What filters do I have in place that only allow me to see 3D possibilities?

What filters can I add me to see more 5D possibilities?